Appreciate your effort but it wont change me at all.

"CALL ME BABY" - EXO

THE MV IS FINALLY OUT!!!
I cant scream loudly since i should sit nicely infront of ballroom to standby for seminar registration
But i still can secretly play on youtube to watch the video!

EXO DAEBAK!
They really out of the confort zone
The concept is really different
Even the song isnt really "easy listening" type of song
But overall, perfect.

I cant handle my self not to scream for SEHUN.
Even there is so many CHEN part, i cant lie to my self, SEHUN is so adorable :(
The combination of his dance move and his face expression really freakin me out
Sehun, why so sexy!?!?

Well, the other side that makes me happy is
Many CHEN part, yes, now they see Chen not as a "low-rate" member anymore
His dance move improved a lot! And his voice isnt changed at all. Perfect!

CHANYEOL.
This is one is also special, but i see him from the different side.
His face is "automatically" handsome as usual.
But when i see his instagram, he is a musician.
His taste of music is so unique. But i like it!
His also humble, even from his face, voice, and the way he talk to the fans is so different
He is also active in social media, its a proove that he care alot about his fans

Well the other member is so so.
Theyre all good and handsome :)

Thank you for the new album, dear EXO.

regards,
EXO-L

Craving for make up!!!
Money come to me :(((((

Mau sesempurna apapun persiapannya tetep aja pasti ada yg missed :(
Semoga dua hari kedepan semuanya berjalan dengan lancar.
Tuhan Yesus sempurnain 0:)

so many random thoughts whispering around my head.
God, whats going on with me?
i cant think clearly
is it wrong is it wrong is it wrong is it wrong ??????

i miss you, dear "Mr. new folder 2"

:(

Human make things complicated.

if it meant to be, it will be.

let reality bring you to the situation you'll never expect :)

Tuhan Yesus
Aku bersyukur atas segala hal yang terjadi dihidupku
Ajar aku lebih lagi ya Tuhan agar dapat mengerti Engkau
Layakan aku untuk dapat melayaniMu dimimbarMu yang kudus
Jauhkan aku dari segala hal yang ngga berkenan bagiMu

Tuhan Yesus yang tau apa yang ada didalam benakku
Tuhan Yesus yang tau apa yang aku rindukan
Tuhan Yesus pimpin terus supaya aku tidak salah dalam mengambil keputusan
Ingatkan aku Tuhan dikala aku berjalan berbelok dariMu.

Ampuni aku Tuhan :(
Setelah semua yang aku lakukan, Tuhan Yesus kenapa bertambah baik :(
Jauhkan kondeman dipikiranku yang terus berusaha menjauhkanku dariMu

Aku ngga bisa tanpaMu ya Tuhan :(
Sungguh.

Promise.

Lately,
i fall for one of newest exo's song
a song with many romantic words
this song tell me a story 
about relationship between an idol and their fans.
i cant hold my tears to stay up on my eyes.
they fall into the floor.
not because im sad, but flattered.
10 boys, with clumsy, cool, and pamper look.
i dont think they can be as romantic as this.
even more, this lyrics which i wanna show, 
was written by one of my favorite member.

Chen.

EXO - Promise.

Sometimes, I close my eyes and fall into the thought of you
You habitually imagine of that familiar image of me
Despite my clumsiness, you still like me no matter what
But do I deserve to be loved by you? 
You who have always been waiting for me
You who embrace me with your arms
I won’t forget
I will make you happy
like the ‘we are one’ word I’ve told you. 
Although time passes, there is a word I cannot express,
sinking down in my heart.
'I'm sorry' 'I love you'
asking you to believe in me like this time
I will hug you and hold your hands
If I am able to express my heart,
I will devote myself to you. 
I want to protect you
whenever
'Things will be better or it will be forgotten as time passes'
Since those consoling words might not be able to conform you, I feel uneasy again.
Don’t go. I wanna hold you back.
I know that it is difficult to keep believing in me since the promise was broken once.
However, I wanna stay with you forever, living and sharing breath.
I wish we were happy like that in the beginning.
Thank you, I’m so sorry, love you.
Even if I have given my all to you, it’s not gonna be enough love
I’ll protect you all my life.
yeah it’s okay to just follow me. 
You who always wait for me
Go straight on, thankful ‘you’

I will never forget.
I will make you happy
like the ‘we are one’ word I’ve told you.

Although it might be hard and tiring,
I will go up on the stage again
once again, I will encourage myself to do it.
For you who have been waiting for me,
I will hug you and hold your hands.
If I am able to express my heart,
I will devote myself to you.

Those joyous days
My birthday’s stage, I spent with you.

The single word from you cheered me up
I promise~
Promise me~

When your heart feels terribly hurt, I will definitely embrace you.
Although time passes, there is a word I cannot express,
sinking down in my heart.
'I'm sorry' 'I love you'
asking you to believe in me like this time
I will hug you and hold your hands.
If we can stay together endlessly,
I will devote myself to you.

*and this is a minute part from the live version.
sorry i cant find the HD version :(

ENJOY :)

Pernah ngga ngerasa sedih tanpa alasan?
Ngga.
Karena gue percaya segala sesuatu yang terjadi pasti karena alasan.
Hanya saja terkadang kita membohongi diri sendiri dan tidak mau mengakui suatu hal tersebut sebagai alasan,
Karena apa?
Karena tidak semua hal yang terjadi dihidup kita terjadi dengan seijin kita.
Mereka bertindak semaunya dengan tidak memikirkan perasaan kita.
Dan dengan atau tanpa sadar mulut kita pun mengucapkan
"Aku sedih tanpa alasan".

Begitu pula dengan perasaan bahagia.
Karena itu jangan pernah juga mengucapkan,
"Aku bahagia tanpa alasan".

goodbye

Ini bukan konteks cinta2an atau hal menye2 lainnya.

"Good bye"
adalah satu satunya kata yang paling gue benci melebihi semua kata terkasar yang pernah mereka ucapkan ke gue.
Kata kasar itu memang terdengar menyakitkan namun hanya sekejap.
Bahkan kalaupun kata tersebut membuat mata gue tergenang air tetap akan hilang setelahnya.
Tapi kata Good bye sebenernya mempunyai secuil rasa sakit didalamnya walaupun gue mengucapkannya dengan senyum.
Bahkan ketika gue tau gue akan bertemu lagi diwaktu yang tidak lama,
Gue tetep benci goodbye.
Karena itu gue sangat menghargai waktu yg gue luangkan untuk hal2 atau orang2 kesukaan gue.
Kalo orang bilang "there is a new hello after goodbye"
Apakah new hello itu akan sama seperti yang kita harapkan?
Belum tentu.
Dan gue benci beradaptasi.
Once gue pewe sama satu orang, gue akan mati2an jaga orang itu dan jangan sampe ada kata Goodbye.
Adaptasi, ngenal satu sama lain dari awal, iya kalo orangnya kepo dan banyak nanya,
Sejam doang juga udah kelar kali adaptasinya.
Tapi gue?
Males nanya yang ada nerka nerka sendiri, belom lagi kalo tebakan gue salah.
Nerka lagi, salah lagi, dan begitu seterusnya sampe mungkin sekitar satu tahun gue baru bisa mengenal orang itu.

Tapi bagaimana sebaliknya kalo gue berada di posisi yang ingin mengucapkan kata Goodbye.
Nah loh!