until its official.

we know each other since long time ago. i dont even remember when it was. i guess its more than 5 years. several time we hangout with other friends we know without talking to each other. few times away, finally we know each other. your secret story touching me heart, makes me want to care about you more than it should be. no, i dont hear your story from your own mouth. someone told me. i saw your sincere smile,
and i like it with no conscious. talking to you occasionally and i start to curious about you.

time flies, we're finally close. you know anything about me, what i like, what i dont like, anything. me either, knowing you that much. our friendship is growing so fun. we have a lot of similarities. everytime my heart broke (mostly because my fail relationship), you start to comfort me with your magic word. you even tell me about your real feeling for some girl. not often for us to hangout together, watching movie, culinary trip, sleepover, attend a concert, and more. and i know, its all fun to spend everything with you. till one day we start to call each other, best friend.

few years passes, i start to feel weird. i secretly miss you when youre not here with me. my heart beat fast when your name appear on my cellphone. i like to call you more often just to know how are you doin. saying goodbye feel so hard after we're going somewhere. i start to think about you all day. i feel like jealous when i see you with other girl. and i realize... omg its love! no, no wayyy. my heart screaming. but then i cant do anything. i know this is wrong. beside this feeling growing stronger, all i can do is hating my self. sometimes hating you for no reason. few times trying to create a space between us, but still.. failed.

and it comes the day you accompany me to an annual christmas celebration meeting, and after you take me home, you said a words that burn my sleepy. yes im crying, but it because im happy. knowing you are mine, its a thing that i've never imagine. though i know, this is not happy ending yet, we should fight for other thing, at least im not alone anymore. i have someone who stand with me and keeping each other stronger.

throwing back like this then realized how funny our story is. well, im not a type of a girl who dating best friend. i fall in love easily. once i saw a man that touching my heart, i can fall for him in a minute. thats the reason at first i think i cant fall for you since many times we met and i never felt like something happen with my heart.

well, i guess this is God's plan to make this kind of our love story. i Thank God for everything happen in my life. Guide us Dad. remind me his name in my heart, remind him my name in his heart. i trust You will never bring us this far to leave us in the end.



















Genesis 31 : 49
"May the Lord keep watch between you and me when we are away from each other"

Maafin aku Tuhan Yesus :((((((

2015.

well yesterday you thought me about most 15 unforgettable moment in 2015, and i said to you that i wont answer. but no, im lying. i will answer. but in a page you will never read. yes, here.

1. first hug in first minute of 2015 from my bestfriend crush (boyfriend now)
2. 4 birthday surprises on Sunday
3. Beach, Sun, Gelato, Pork, Betutu in Bali
4. very last time hangover in the club with the girls
5. Juwita move to Madiun
6. Having good lunch with dad mom dinda and dimas
7. Dufan with fav boys
8. the most painful cry in my life
9. Winner 2015
10. Madiun 2 times in a year with my best girl
11. stop being kpop fangirl
12. Resign from office
13. free time in a week.
14. Sammy's
15. Jojo leave choir
16. Dilla's shocking news
17. Bandung with FLRe
18. Tiberias Christmas celebration
19. Daddy's birthday
20. Family Gathering
21. Funny moment on SEA Games Reunion

ATEAM SEA Games 2011 Reunion

Seharian tadi kepala gue pusing ga karuan, kerja dikantor ngga konsen, ditambah mbandit minta kutekin dengan hiasan dot2 kecil2 yg butuh ekstra fokus bikin mata gue makin berat dan hasilnya pun jadi ngga sesempurna seperti yamg gue harapkan. 

Sampe rumah gue langsung tidur sampe jam stgh10, chat ama Sammy sebentar dan sepertinya sekarang dia udh ketiduran sedangkan mata gue skrg lg gonjreng2nya.

Akhirnya gue memilih ngebawel sama blog gue deh -_-

Jadi sabtu kemaren itu ceritanya reunian sama ATEAM SEA Games 2011 walaupun ngga lengkap tapi mayoritas dateng semua.

Kangen. Iya kangen banget. Bukan dengan mereka secara personal. Tapi mereka yang sepaket.

Karena kalo personal gue sering ketemu kaya si Lenty, Rico, dan lainnya.

Kemaren gue dateng paimg telat kedua setelah Andi yang dateng setengah jam setelah gue, ada kondangan katanya.

Gue sendiri nunggu hujan sama Sammy di Senayan City, iya kita abis gereja.

Kita reuni di Hide and Seek SCBD, setelah sekitar jam9 gue sampe, lumayan heboh cipika cipiki satu satu ke mereka, dan Oyo smpet ngasi kursinya ke gue yang bikin gue belom apa2 udah dicengin ama yang lainnya. Baiklah. Setelah itu rerumpian nanya kabar, kerja dimana, nanyain yg ngga dateng, ngobrolin kejadian2 yang dulu2, yang lucu, yang seru, sampe yang sedih2.

To be honest, menjadi salah satu panitia SEA Games kemaren itu termasuk pengalaman terindah dalam hidup gue.

http://realityinsidemydream.blogspot.co.id/2015/06/the-most-unforgettable-moment.html?m=0

Dan kemaren saat kita ketemu semuanya udah beda. Iya bedaaaa. Apalagi penampilannya. Ada yang kurusan, gemukan, putihan, hitaman, macem2! Hihi

Pesen makan, ngobrol2, foto2, pulang.

Standart sih. Cuman bersyukur kemaren masih bisa kumpul. Karena ada yang januari berangkat ke Belanda buat sekolah, ada yang maret nikah, dan hal2 lain yang semakin menyulitkan kita buat ketemu. 

Dibawah ini adalah foto kita yang di college tahun 2011 dan 2015. Yang 2011 yang pasti yang atas lah hahaha. Secara masi pada butek2.

Dan yang bawah itu kemarin sabtu ^^

Beda jauh ngga kita???

Hope to see you guys again sooner yah ^^

Kepala pusing banget astagahhh :(

Push my self to hear your song didn't even get myself fall for you, but it make myself remember about all the things that happen at the time i play that song. 

I look to your picture today

You still cute as usual 

Still adorable 

Those humble smile never change 

But still, my heart didn't feel anything at all.

Sorry chen :(

you.

First name appear in my mind to text to in every morning.

An adorable figure that i've missed every lil time.

A cute voice that calm my emotion.

A favorite smile that blank out my sad.

A natural laugh that make me laugh too with no reason

A beautiful wink that keep me falling

A warm hug that can kill my coldness

A pure holdhand that comfort me so good

A favorite song that i sing everyday

I thank God to have all those things.

sorry.

If i cant figure it out

your every hide words, 

your sad smile, 

your quite act,

If i still cant be,

a good listener for your every story.

Sorry.

For giving you bad advice

telling you a hurtful words

keep up my ego

being childish that really annoyed you

being mad and moody for no reason

I pray

for the bright future that God has prepared for you.

for every dream you keep inside.

for your happiness 

for your healthiness 

for everything you love and everything you have.

please.

remind me if i do bad

keep that smile

stay the same

stay with me.

:)