Tuesday, 17 April 2012

second day was so random
Everything happen without no plans before
And finally i have someone to talk
i have a new friend, 2 girls from vietnam and  another one is from here, bali
I stupidly forgot to ask the name from 2 girls from vietnam
So until now just call them with "hey"
Hahaha so awkward --"
They sleep over in the same hotel with me
I met them in the pool, firstly thought they're from thailand
But i think im wrong. hahaha. 
the way they speak to each other sounds like thailands language.
Another one named ugi, he is work in kuta beach as surfer
He is unique and talk a lot.
Well, at least m not alone here. haha
Many things to think for today
It make me feel random
when i arrived at hotel,
Suddenly i feel sad and then i cry for nothing
Actually there is a thing that make me feel like that
but i dontt have a mood to share in here
Hehehe sorry..
And another happy time is when talk a lot on the phone with jojo
we talk a lot in the middle of the night
She can naturally make me happy without doing nothing
Just suddenly talk about many random things 
and then feel way better than before hahaha
Well, its time to sleep. good nite universe :*
i dont know what really happen with me
i just being so clumsy
forgot all the important things
cant barely think
have no idea about what to do
being stupid in every situation
is that really me ?
but why am i so different now ?
i feel like im lost from my world
still cant found any comfort place
act like an idiot all day long
why ????
Daddy save me.. i want my world back !!!

Tuesday, 10 April 2012

DONT KNOW WHY,
BUT THIS IS THE TRUTH
YES, I STILL REMEMBER..
 THE SMELL OF YOUR PERFUME. 
tomorrow
i cant wait for tomorrow
there is sweet escape for tomorrow
i close my eyes to all my problem for a while
only a sea, sand and sky infront of me
what a peace place
heaven in earth :)
i will go for 2 weeks
aaah i think its a much time to heal everything
and most interested thing is, i go for a trip alone :)
my friends cancel their trip because they have a problem with their tickets
i think i really need a lot of "me time"
and now its a perfect time. i guess.
aaahhhhh.. i can do all i wanna do..
if you can see, now on my face, there is a very big smile :D
i think im so pretty with this smile hihihi
my face look so fresh and exciting
thanks Jesus for this opportunity :) 

Saturday, 7 April 2012

last august, i've made a big mistake. i make a big problem. i make my parents cry. last november. i have problem with one of subject on campus so i couldn't finish my study yet. beside that, i have a many problem that no one knows. i chose to keep it my self and it hurt me so bad. i cry a lot in a hide place and even until now, that problem isn't finish yet. and now there come a new problem. im crying a lot in last one year. im so tired with this. ever think on my brain to finish my life. but suddenly i remember that i still have Jesus. but sometime all these problems just make me want to give up. i dont have anyone. i only have Jesus. but really, i need one person can give me a spirit when im down. i mean a real person. i dont care who they are. a girl or a boy. an old one or a young one. i need friend. even one. i really need it. but until now,still.. there is nobody who can comfort me. i hurt a lot. Daddy, this time i cant facing reality. i really cant. should i give up ? should i ?? show me Your way.. i have no idea for now.. i dont have someone to share.. i dont even have nothing to do. im lost. away.. away from this reality.. did You create me for being a hurted human who never found a happiness.. so. take me with You then..

Wednesday, 4 April 2012

MAKE UP..

well this time i will talk obout one of my hobby.. 
hobby gue sebenernya itu gambar.. dimana aja gue suka gambar.. apalagi diwajah orang. kalo diwajah sediri gue kurang pede, hahaha, biasanya orang lain duluan gue jadiin korban corat coret gue, kalo berhasil baru deh gue coba dimuka gue sendiri. hahaha curang yaa. dan korban gue itu keseringan yaa temen temen gue khususnya cewe.. muka mereka gue gambar suka suka gue tergantung mood gue lagi gimanaa.. hahaha.. ini beberapa hasilnyaa..

















FLAYER DESIGN.. 

my another hobby is making a flyer for any event. yepp this one is being my job because i make flayer for almost every event presented by Syndicate Production.. hahaha.. asal mereka bikin event, kadang kadang gue disuru bikin flyernya sesuai sama tema event merekaa.. duduk depan komputer sambil cari cari ide sekreatif mungkin supaya flyernya keliatan bagus itu hal yang sangat menyenangkan lohh.. gue suka menggabungkan banyak warna dan gambar.. well, this is it..




ini cuma beberapa sih, yakali gue ngepost semuanya. hahaha. semua flyer yang gue bikin itu sesuai dengan tema dari eventnya, yaa walaupun ide ide gue masi sangat terbatas tapi gue ngga akan nyerah buat terus muter otak dan menggali ide supaya bisa lebih kreatif lagii.. i love doing my interesting job.. reallyy  !!!


**\(^o^)/**

Tuesday, 3 April 2012

unimportant post... woohooowww :P

helloooowwwwww !!!!!!
today is almost over
and i do a lot of interesting activityall day long
with one of my old best friend CITRA when i was in high school
we eat a lot today.. muahaha lets get fattttt ><"
she gave me a pork noodle and we eat a lot
we're so fuuuuulllll~ the pork noodle taste sooooo yummeehhh
and then we take a few picture, only citra i guess, not me
i do a make up on her face then i take a picture of her
do you wanna see ?
i'll post it in my last words..
then we talk a lot, i share all about my life lately
and she told me that she will get married in this year
well.. may things we share..
i also show her a super junior concert.. even though i know she will never like it hahahaha
but i STILL show her :P
honestly, i feel a lil'bad of her -_-
why ?? because she cancel our trip to bali T_T
and dienar will replace her
aaakk.. we already make a lot of schedule for our trip before.. but its all USELESS now T___T
huuu citra sampaaaahhhh !!!
well its okay.. i will tell her about my interesting trip in bali and make her jealous with mee... 
huh, we'll see citra !!!
and then.. we plan to go to bangkok next year.. hope she will not cancel our trip again 
just because her study or maybe her pregnancy ( maybe ) muahahahaha :P
okayy.. this is her photo.. look at her ugly and annoying face here. ;'(


look at my make up on her face :P make she look pretty rite ? nyahahaha 

 

Friday, 30 March 2012

dream bed room ^^

hahahaha again, i've found something unusual things from the internet
and it makes my imagination's getting higher and higher
i just found some unique bed room and i wish i could make it real
i wish i can sleep inside that room
dont know the reason why, i just really love all about tree things
but i hate a green colour.. weird huh ? :P
sit down behind the tree while hearin music
wooww it feels like heaven i guess

so, look up this bed! there's a tree in every corner
looks like i sleep under the tree rite ??
feel so peace.. 
but theres no TV inside that. then i'll put my TV and dvd player so i can watch all my favorite movie and play my favorite songs..
whuuoooww my world must be so perfect !!
eitss.. i have another one hahaha
then how about the right one ??
a bed room with the sauna pool 
i really love sauna.. aah actually i love all the water things too.. water is good..
so relaxing, especially a warm water..

PIRATES PARTY

this is the condition in the middle of the party. we all put our hands up because actually there's a show infront of us. there's a live P.A from Omar Garcia, he screaming "put your hands up!!!" so we do that. you know what !! Omar is so handsome !! thats the reason why im standing right infront of him. hahaha i want to see him closer :P he has a big eyes, perfect nose and sexy lip. and he's so humble. then he smile at me and suddenly im dying !! aaarrrgghh Omaaaaarrr !!!
too many people inside that place. actually im only excited to omar's performance. after that i go back to have a sit. i go there with my friends. many people i that know but im lazy to say "hi" and chillin' with all of them. only a few friends, like cece, lucky, gemmy, onal, tian, and some others. hahaha sorry guys :P anyway, i arrived at that place at 9p.m and the party has start in 10p.m until hmmm.. about 3a.m. i guess. i forgot. hahaha. thats too late but i still have a permission from my parents. yippie !! i know this is a pirates party but i guess im wearing a wrong costume. am i ?? ahhahaha i dont care :P i feel like im nanny's who work in cowboy's era. hahaha i dont know. maybe its just my feeling. but look at others costume, they're wearing a blazer and only me, once again, only meeeeeee, who wearing a sabrina dress. hahahaha. well, at least im look good , rite ?? not really bad, im lucky i still wearing a red head band and its make me look like a pirates. ahaha. who cares. they dont even notice me i guess..
i didnt get drunk at the party.. i dont drink a lot. because i dont want to get drunk. i just enjoy the music and try to enjoy the crowded. woow the people inside that place is about 200-300 peoples. so hot, im sweating a bit. they're look so happy. there is a big and beautiful smile i saw in every face. they sing together. laugh together. dance together. aaah i saw a lot of happiness inside that place. but its too bad because i dont feel the same. hahaha. you must be so boring to hear my story right. i never feel good lately. bad. always bad.
but looookkk !! im good at faking smile right ?? look at my face, look at my smile, cute right ? hahaha. sorry for being so narcissist. .. aaah again, im out of topic. lets continue our talk about the party. lets look at the left picture. this is me and gemmy. he's my church friend actually. haha. we never met sice a long time. he's so busy with his dance cover. but finally i saw him at that party. i miss him abit. he's one of my best friend. we always chat almost everyday, but we stop since last january. huhuu he's busy..
the party was soo good. there's 4 DJ who play a lot of RnB song. but we call them "captain" not "DJ" becuase its pirates. hahaha. well 4 captains who play a great remix songs are Captain Bagols for opening, Captain Sleezy, Captain Dee-Na, and the last is Captain Is-Q for closing. they're awesome. even though its amid nite already, you'll never feel sleepy while hearin their remix songs. really good, i guarantee. but still stay at home is better i guess. hahaha weirdo meeee... hearin music while sleepin' around under my blanket is waaaaaayy better.



woooww
i found a lot of cute baby animal pictures
and of course i'll post all of the photos's here :P
so, enjoy !!!

















Wednesday, 28 March 2012

What makes this world go round?
Will the answer let her down?
She is so sweet and young and her life has just begun.
What does her future hold?
That's the story left unknown.
Will she make it through her days?
Sitting there all alone in the window of her room.
Watching the world go by brings tears to her eyes.
All she sees is hurt and pain and she wants to break the chains.
She'll keep pressing everyday and she'll find her own sweet way.
Part of me laughs.
Part of me cries.
Part of me wants to question why.
Why is there joy?
Why is there pain?
Why is there sunshine then the rain?
One day you're here.
Next you are gone.
No matter what we must go on.
Just keep the faith.
And let love lead the way.
Everything will work out fine.
If you let love, love lead the way.


sg - let love lead the way

LOOK WHAT I'VE FOUND !!!
i really love this picture...

yepp.. a tree house..
i really want to live there..
such a silence and peace place to live.. the place where no one cant find me.. and i will text all of them like this "FIND ME IF YOU CAN" muahahaha~ aah and of course, i will singing my favorite song with out loud voice.. no need to worry, because no one can hear me.. someone please buy me this place T_____T
oh yaa, i just found another one !! :D



 
how about this one ??
theres 3 floor in this tree house
but looks like this is a small one
but i will make a "muvie" room in the first floor
muvie means : MUsic and moVIE
hahaha, not bad, huh ?
where i can watch, dance and sing inside that place
i will put a lot of my korean series dvd, my music cd, and theres a lil' bed to me for sleepin' arround when i want to have a relax time..
second floor! its gonna be a random room. because i will put of all my things inside that. theres a.. hmm my dress, my shirt, my make up, my shoes, my laptop, my computer, and many more. ah there's a bath room too in second floor.
and third floor !!
thats gonna be my room of course :))
the highest place will make me comfort to sleep
theres no lamp inside it, only a bed, and my blanket.. yepp my favorite blanket..aah and also, my big teddy bear !! hahaha almost forget ;P



*well..
i think its enough..
too much imagination.. 
but i wish i can make it real..
:)) 


Monday, 26 March 2012

another fellas


슈퍼주니어

Super junior !!!
All I wanna do screaming out loud everytime I hear that name..
They're awesome, gorgeous, adorable, humble, multitalented, handsome.
PERFECT !!
Hahaha gue jatuh cinta sama mereka sejak mereka ngeluarin album kedua. Awal taun 2007.
Ini skrg lagi nonton dvd ss3nya.
Wotth wottt wotttt. In first hour, I already see donghae, eunhyuk, sungmin and siwon's abs.. Geezz !!! They have a beautiful body.
Hmm I just wondering, why they like to showing their abs ? No, not only super junior members, I mean every man who has a beautiful body, they have so much confidence to showing their body. Yepp, like walking around with no shirt infront of public. Hahaha. But super junior is the only exception. I will support every lil'thing what they do. Muahahahaha~
Kalo udah dipanggung mereka itu gilaa. Sekali lagi, GILA!!!
apalagi kalo lagu yang mereka nyanyiin itu ngga ada koreografinya. Makin menjadi jadi kelakuan liarnya. Ada yang dorong2an, pukul2an, peluk2an, jambak2an, lari2an. Astagaaa. Bisa ngebayangin ngga sih mereka ngelakuin itu tanpa sadar kalo seluruh dunia ngeliat kelakuan konyol mereka.
Waktu itu donghae kebagian pas nyanyi, mau ngga mau dia harus nyanyi dong, tapi pantatnya dipukul2in sama member lainnya, badannya dikelitik2in, rambutnya ditarik2in. Tapi dia ngga bisa bikin apa2 karena itu pas lg part dia nyanyi. Tapi setelah selesai partnya, dia langsung lari ngejarin member satu2 buat bales dendam.
ini beberapa foto kegilaan mereka kalo lagi konser --"
funny, isnt it ?? hahaha
keranjang super market dapet darimana coba, bisa ada diatas panggung aja --" hahaha

siwon disirem sama donghae dan heechul, motivasinya apa ? --"

 donghae tiba2 mic-nya mati, dan semua member nyodorin mic mereka, sweet sih, tapi ngga gitu juga caranya, hahaha

Kelakuan mereka bener bener se-enaknya seakan2 ngga ada yang nontonin tingkah laku mereka --"
Selain itu, serunya nonton super show mereka itu, koreo asli sama yg dikonser beda, kadang di remix kadang ditambahin apa gt yg bikin tambah keren. Ngga pernah biasa, selalu luar biasa \(*o*)/
Oiya ada lagi, mereka selalu ada perform yang lucu, ntah pake kostum2 sayur2an atau binatang2 atau kostum2 super hero. Hahaha. Jadi penampilannya ngga selalu keren, lucu ada, macho ada, sedih juga ada, apalagi pas nyanyi bareng2 sama ELF satu stadion. Terharu deh, Leeteuk sering ngomong "kami bukan apa apa, tanpa kalian semua, saranghae" aaaaahhh hiks :') mereka rendah hati selalu, ngga pernah sombong. Oiya satu lagi, mereka suka berkelakuan feminim. Noooo ! Let me tell you one more time yah, they're not gay ! Itu cuma becanda2an doang. Mereka suka niruin girl group SNSD. Dan itu lucu banget, maksaaa, ngga cocokkk. Badan mereka keker2 gituu. Hahaha.
Kadang terlintas sih dipikiran gue. Itu semua kan kelakuan mereka diatas panggung. Kita ngga pernah tau apa yang sebenernya terjadi sama masing masing mereka. Apa mereka bener bener bahagia ? Mungkin aja super junior itu sebenernya bukan keinginan mereka. Apa mereka ngga jenuh sama rutinitas yang kaya gitu ? Let say mereka emang punya segalanya, popularitas, kekayaan, segudang cinta dan perhatian dari fans mereka. Tapi kita ngga pernah tau apa yg ada didalam hatinya. Bisa aja mereka sebenernya kesepian, jauh dari orang tua mereka, harus tinggal di dorm bareng manager dan member lainnya. Selama terkontak di super junior, mereka juga ngga boleh punya pacar. Kelakuan sih boleh kaya anak kecil, tapi umur mereka udah sepantasnya menikahh --" Bahkan hal sepele, tidur. Tidur aja mereka mesti curi2 waktu, sehari mereka cuma tidur paling lama 4jam. Selebihnya mereka syuting iklan, video clip, ngegym dan sebagainya. Sampe sampe gue denger setiap hari mereka mesti minum dan suntik vitamin buat jaga daya tahan tubuh mereka.
Bener bener kasihann :(

 ini bukti kalo mereka humble, selalu bow down di akhir konser sambil bilang "kamsahamnida" 
how sweet they are :')


260312..

I'm at java been coffee with obuu tasya and lenty
We're havin a really good time. Actually we're on the process to make some project, hmm birthday project I mean.. For our lovely manager when we work at sea-games.. Hehehe..
We make a video, always failed because we can't control our laugh and for a thousand time, its failed --"
But we never give up, we still trying again and again. And finally, its DONE *\(^•^)/*
Obuu obuu obuuuuu
I feel way better now :D
I'm happy !! Really..
Huhhh I'm lazy to go home. My daddy isn't at home. He go to some place for his business. I don't know where, I forget, I guess.
My mommy busy with her own business
Dimas must be havin a date with his girlfriend
And Dinda must be being freak infront of her laptop
I only have emmow and gossy to talk. But they're a dog. Hoaaah how can I talking to dog ?? --"
Hmm. Better stay here a bit longer :D
Obuuuuu. I'm happy now. You always know how to make me feel better. Thanks for sending me a lot of voice not. I always smile after hearin' your voice not. Thank youuuu
I love obuuu
*bearhugggg*